giving up an aspiration just to help someone?

i not sure if i am doing the right thing. or having the right decision i would say. being someone able to be teach and to be taught have always been what i wanted. now, im only one step away from it. just one footstep away. and i give up? and to do something else that no one really wan to to for the same pricing?

but sometimes, loving someone too much is like this. sacrifices have to be made. anyway, it's only for a month. like the chinese saying goes: ' who goes to hell if i dont?' i wanted so much to help. i dunno. argh! i need my friends now. really.

oh well, i woke up this morning at 8am for piano lesson before i actually goes to work. first day of work sux. i have nothing to do. just sit around and carry baby? photos uploaded soon kay. =) after piano lesson went to IKEA with darling. to buy some candles for the office. uncle needed the candles to pray. and alright. i dun mean SOME. it TONS OF IT.! god. 25 packets worth of 100 candles. so total we bought like 2500 candles. woot! and we CANT carry it.

i need to talk to someone now. really need.