" MONEY IS AN EMOTIONALLY-LOADED SUBJECT. IT REPRESENTS MANY THINGS TO DIFFERENT PEOPLE. BECAUSE OF ALL THE EMOTIONS THAT SURROUND MONEY, PEOPLE FIND IT DIFFICULT TO DEAL WITH IT OBJECTIVELY AND PRODUCTIVELY."

-QUOTED FROM CLEO-

i was reading cleo mag and i came across this phrase, and realised how money is such a sensitive issue after working to close than a week in office. this is a very different job from all my past job as it is not a very front line. having to deal with customers and all. being an admin is actually quite cool i think, but not with people around u all complaining about the boss and how the company functions. i know at most of the time, it is not as simple as i thought to be. too much conflicts goes around between people. one word: money. i have no say. i just wanna do wat im supposed to do from 10-6. and get my pay at the end of the month. and most importantly, help darling and keep him less stressful. that's it. before 10 and after 6 within this month will be my own personal life. please dun mess with it.

i suddenly realised that i've changed. into someone not as out-going as before. into someone who will just keep quiet about everything. and to someone who will think for myself now. i mean, not saying that im selfish, or rather, the life is mine, i choose wat to do with it. smiles on the outside and cries on the inside, maybe that's wat i have always be.