currently, working night shift with liting.

well, so much thoughts, so hard to digest.

some ladies, have no worries, because their lifetime partner are loaded. they do not have to worry about home stay, do not have to worry their 3 meals a day, and their household chores.

some ladies, have lesser worries, because they are living in their own house. what i mean here, means they just stay with their husband and kids. no other family members are staying with them. they are able to make their decisions, on wheather to send their kids to school, to which school, what food to eat, how to meddle with their home furniture and so forth.

well, some are better than others while some are not.

i just felt that just because of my age, people tend to label me. people tend to think that im not as capable. people tend to think that i have to follow their ways, just because they are more mature (as in of age). i do have my own ways of doing many other things as well. y dont people ask me if i want to live with them? they didnt give me a choice in the first place. they didnt even ask if i want to join them. what if my thinking doesnt match theirs? what if living there wasnt my dream as compared to yours?

i just want to turn 21 already. i want to get my own house. i know its not going to be easy, but im working so hard for it. darling baby, please give mummy a bit of time. i need to work now to provide a home called ours. give me a bit more time. please.

current mood: indigestion of thoughts.